What do I do? </3
That time when you meet someone new, but you are still holding that grudge, or whatever it may be over your ex love. You want to be with that new person, you want to love them, you want them to love you back. I feel like i’ll never feel the same way, or have the same kind of feelings for someone else now, because I still love that last one. I want to be with that new person, and think about THEM, and not anyone else. I don’t want to randomly start shedding tears. I know it takes time for the heart to heal, but I feel like it is going to take twice as long for me. I have those days where I’m happy thinking about that new person in my life, but then I have the days where I shed my tears, and all i think about is my first love. I’m ready for a new relationship, but then again i’m not. Life isn’t easy, nor is it fair. This is REAL LIFE, and it’s what I have to deal with. I need to understand, that it really is over between me, and my first love, but I don’t want to believe it. At all. Love hurts, but it’s also the one thing that keeps me happy.
“In Real Life”
In real life I’m waking up alone
It’s one more night you didn’t make it home
And one more time you won’t pick up the phone
In real life you never bring me flowers
When you’re here it’s only for an hour
I’m getting used to being on my own
Because in real life you’re not what I thought
Real life, this isn’t what I want
Guess things aren’t always what they seem
But in my dreams, I’m waking up to roses
Champagne, kisses and I know it’s always, always
Gonna be, gonna be this way
In my dreams, you’re standing right beside me
Two hearts finally colliding
Then I wake up and realise, realise this is real life
Real life, this is real life
Real life, real life
Real life, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, oh
Real life
In real life it doesn’t always work out
People fall in love and then they fall out
Hearts can break and never make a sound
Because in real life you’re not what I thought
Real life, this isn’t what I want
Guess things aren’t always what they seem
But in my dreams, I’m waking up to roses
Champagne, kisses and I know it’s always, always
Gonna be, gonna be this way
In my dreams, you’re standing right beside me
Two hearts finally colliding
Then I wake up and realise, realise this is real life
Just when I thought this was all real life could be
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Somebody came along and made my dream reality
And now in real life, waking up to roses
Champagne, kisses and I know it’s always, always
Gonna be, gonna be this way
In my dreams, he’s standing right beside me
Two hearts finally colliding
When I wake up, I realize, realize this is real life
- Demi Lovato
